You even had me neglect my lovely little dog, not walking, playing, or bathing her. You had me neglecting everything good, my beloved and precious family had to fix their own food, live in a messy house, do their homework alone, while they wondered for 10 months 'What is wrong with Mom?' They never blamed you, though, they thought you were helping me, you sneak. It'll also please you to know, evilness, that you had me staying in a bad relationship just to keep you around me at all times.

You almost had my house, I was at the end of my financial rope when I stopped giving you my money. I haven't talked to you much the past 55 days or so, although you've certainly been trying to interrupt my recovery and life at every turn. This work may be duplicated or copied without the expressed written consent of the author.A friend at NA asked me to write one of these, thought I'd share it with you all:

Don't let addiction take away your life.ДЄ Goodbye Letter by nyahbing.htm'>Nyahbinghi В© Copyright 2009. I hope there are a few who can relate to this letter on some level, whether an addict or the family member of an addict. I choose to be sober.ДЄpproximately 8.8 million people are addicted to alcohol. In case you haven't figured it out yet, our relationship is over!! I don't need you, so go away quietly and don't bother waiting up for me 'cause I won't be back! You are no longer my drug of choice. A Power I can rely upon to help me resist temptations of you. I believe there is a Power greater than me. See, I'm finding true happiness in myself and in others who don't seek to destroy me but rather build me up and guide me through this new journey. The only thing I can do now is take Twelve Steps forward, away from you. I wasted so much time with you, time I cannot get back. I regret that I believed you could solve my problems and calm my fears, ease my suffering and wipe away my tears. I regret that I ever met you and became so intimate with you. You thought I'd be eager to get drunk on your love and let you soothe away my pain. I'm sure you thought I'd miss you and come running back to you. I was nothing to you, just another potential conquest to add to your wall of death. I was to be your victim, not your lover and surely not your friend. You were waiting for me to give up the fight and give up my life. You planned to slowly kill me, suffocate me and poison me with toxic thoughts. Hell, I was even willing to die, for you.Д«ut you see, I realize now that you wanted me to die. I stopped doings things I enjoyed like writing poetry, long walks with my dog and gardening, for you. I neglected my family and avoided my friends, for you. It's all I felt, all I tasted and strangely, all I craved. Made it deeper, to the point where it consumed my whole being. How wrong was I? You only made the pain worse. I thought all I needed was you.that you would take away all my pain. There was a warmth that went all through my body.ДЄs time went on, I thought you really cared about me because you always greeted me with warm kisses when I came home from a stressful day at work, you tucked me in my bed at night, you even helped me wake-up in the morning on occasions when it was hard to get going. I must admit, you swept me off my feet the first time you touched my lips. It's been approximately 3 weeks since I've last seen you.

A goodbye letter to my addiction